Wow, it has been a long time. Fail on my part. I said I would try and update this once a week and then I wait a month and a half to update it. Whoops. Things haven’t exactly gone as planned lately. Forgive me.
Anyways, as many of you have heard by now I am currently unemployed. While my last job was great it was not bringing in the money needed so I decided I needed a change. Now I’m unaware of what will happen and am quite honestly scared that I just screwed up the best thing for me. I’ve gotten remarks and comments on both sides of the spectrum of whether or not quitting that job was a good idea but everyone still says that they hope I’m able to find something soon, which I expect. Whenever you’re going through a hard time everyone says they are sorry to hear it and hope it gets better. Not everyone might mean what they say but everyone says it regardless. This whole shaky time in my life has got me to thinking some things, which is never a good thing, and I began to wonder when I would be able to tell if things had gotten better.
Getting better is such a relative term. It’s similar to being rich. To one person rich could be having a thousand dollars in the bank account while to another rich could mean 10 million dollars. The term is completely different for every person in some way and the same can be said for getting better as well. To one person in my situation getting better could mean getting any job possible and just having some form of steady income while to another it could mean a long-term position that is paying at least 50,000 a year. To someone else it could mean something else entirely and regardless of what the term means to each person the end result will always be different as well. By that I mean it is completely up to the person in the situation to determine whether or not they are better at the present time. They could have gotten better financially but are now trying to get better in their health or in their relationships. The term is universal and chances are that very few people, if anyone, have fully “gotten better”.
You may be wondering why I’m telling you this and frankly right now I am not sure. Like most of my notes and blogs, I am typing this first and then will think later. I tend to spill out my thoughts which actually ends up being some very articulate piece for some reason. I guess you could call it a gift. Anyways, the phrase getting better has really been on my mind lately because right now it doesn’t seem like anything is getting better. I live unemployed and alone in Topeka where I know no one with very little money in my bank account. Not exactly the best situation to be in and those are not the only parts of my life that need to change. My point is that every single one of us needs to get better in some way whether we realize it or not. No one can stay stagnant because chances are that if you stand still you will end up moving backwards. It is impossible to reach a goal when you are not moving towards it. I have been experiencing this first hand in the last couple of weeks. Times have been hard and it seems like nothing is really going my way. I actually just drove 7 hours to home on a whim this past weekend simply because I needed to be in a safe environment for once. Life is rough, which is a fact, but the only way that will change is if I want it to change. Am I scared that it won’t? Definitely, but that isn’t going to stop me from trying. I cannot predict the future and God is the only one that knows what is in store for me. I simply have to take steps to move forward and see where that takes me, and you should do the same.
I hope that things to get better in the next couple weeks and months for me and for whoever is reading this, but most importantly I know that once those things are better there is always something that needs to get better as well. Nobody’s perfect (Miley Cyrus song woohoo!) but people can still be great. Also realize that your definition of getting better might not be the right definition. Some people might not consider having 2 kids and a middle-class income as getting better but if that is what is dealt to you then take advantage of it. Realize that certain things will always seem rough and there will always be something that is making you ask “why me?” regardless of how small it is. Things happen for a reason but nobody ever sat down and waited for things to work in their favor. They took action and made their own destiny. Did they know how it was going to turn out? No, but they had confidence that what they were doing was going to help them in the future and that is really all we can do right now. Things might not be great for you right now and trust me when I say that I feel your pain. However, there is no reason to simply sit down and mope about it because it can get better, but only if you are willing to let it get better. It won’t be easy but no one ever said it was supposed to be easy.
I hope this wasn’t too much of a ramble, but like I said earlier I write and then think. I promise to try and update this now at least once a week and hopefully it will work out better than my last promise on this blog. Take care everyone and God bless.
Grizzy
